Chapter Twenty One: Though I Miss You, I Know You Had to Go
*Tommy's POV*
Even though it appeared that way as I was at school, I wasn't mad, depressed, gloomy or sad. I was just quiet. I was deep in my head nearly every second and my mind was vibrating with thoughts going so fast I couldn't pick one out. So I didn't say much. I mean, was there really anything to say? I couldn't come up with anything because I was so, well, blank and no one was directly talking to me. Today I just wanted to wander aimlessly and not have anything big go on. It would be a nice fly-by day if I avoided my unusual situations that somehow always find their w
Chapter Eighteen: Believe It Or Not
*Tommy's POV*
If you could get a hangover from too much excitement, I think I had one. For five days.
The whole day after we bowled I didn't want anything to do with any words that began with K. That included people. In my little fiasco with that brown-haired hottie (remember, no K words? Yeah, that name is still in rule) things got more intense than I had planned. We got high before long and it got as hot as the joints we smoked. Then there was kissing and grabbing and blackness. I couldn't remember a thing after the last puff I took as he bit my neck. Unfortunately everything prior to that was vi
Chapter Nineteen: I've Been Waiting So Long
*Tommy's POV*
I was never more excited in my life. I was even so happy that I couldn't even cry tears of joy, and me not crying is truly a spectacular in itself.
Adam leaned back just far enough so that he could look me in the eyes. They've never looked so beautiful.
"I have missed you so much," he told me, smiling sadly.
"I missed you too," I repeated, heating up as he brought his hands up to my cheeks. His shaking thumbs glided gently over my face like he was checking if I was real. I grabbed two fistfuls of his shirt and pulled his body close to me so that his parted lips were right against
Chapter Seventeen: It Was Only a Kiss
*Tommy's POV*
Ughbowling. Hah! League bowlers don't they have anything better to do with their life? Honestly, who would want to ever come to a smelly bowling alley, wear ridiculous-looking, obnoxiously colored shoes, be surrounded by the loud partiers and the weird nerds, all while potentially breaking your fingers and making a fool out of yourself by slipping on the waxed floor? Apparently my idiotic friends which were actually trying to bowl backwards between their legs at the moment. I was sitting at the table with spinning chairs, staring at them like "What the hell?" But I guess I coul
Chapter Sixteen: Connections
*Adam's POV*
The day started good and I was feeling hopeful. The night went by relatively quickly after my group session. With Mr. Garbern, there was a lot less pressure to say things because the questions and things he implied were open to everyone to respond to, and nothing had to be personal if you didn't want it to be. And obviously there was the main difference of having others there as opposed to it being one-on-one. Plus I had made new friends with some, too. The only thing was that I only got to go to him once a week for group. But, how is it not better than with Miss. T.?
So that attitude left me in a
Chapter Fifteen: Forgive and Forget
*Allyson's POV*
By the time I came back into consciousness again, white lights were piercing through my eyelids. I blinked them open slowly, squinting at their brightness. The events from last night came pouring through my mind. I trailed down to my arm and it was lightly bandaged. If I wasn't this tired I think I would have slapped myself for being so stupid. Taking the wrong pills for cramps may have made my head a little loose but not bad enough to make me delusional and dumb.
My ears picked up low and senseless mumbling, and I checked the other side I was laying on. Tommy was sitting in a chair next
Chapter Fourteen: First Time Mistakes for Old Time Problems
*Tommy's POV*
Fortunately, Allyson's parents were out of town for a business trip and there was no way that they'd know about this if we played it right. But I really couldn't think about any of that right now. I kept crying into her shoulder like I had into Adam's times before. She still didn't even know what I was doing here, nearly one in the morning on a school night breathing heavily between hysterical sobs. I felt kind of bad for showing up like this, and it would have been a completely different situation if her parents weren't conveniently gone. My head started pounding fro
Chapter Thirteen: Words from a Lover
*Tommy's POV*
Oh my god, was all I could think after every single sentence. It was so hard to process from not hearing from him in nearly a month, maybe more. It may not seem long, but when you were in love like we were and if they were gone for the same reasons he was, it was a very, very long and agonizing time. Though I could still imagine his every word being spoken with tender care and the way he wrote the letters so neatly connected. At first I zoomed over the entire two pages, front and back, taking bits and pieces from the sentences like my name and how much Adam loves me and how sorry he was. A
Chapter Twelve: A Penny for Your Thoughts
*Adam's POV*
When my alarm clock starting screaming at me, all I wanted to do was smash it into a million little pieces. All I had to do was turn over and I would've known I had to get up. I mean, staring at the ceiling during all the latest hours of the day gets pretty boring. Sometimes when I had enough I started to pace back and forth next to my bed in the darkness. It was a sleepless night full of Tommy. Questions about Tommy, dreams about Tommy, worries about Tommy, memories of Tommy That brown-eyed blonde would not leave my head, my eyes, or my ears. I swear even sometimes he was on my s
Chapter Eleven: Paper, Pencils and Heartbreak
*Tommy's POV*
Back in school, waiting for something or someone to make my life worse. It wasn't very hard. The fact that we could've gotten a snow day today but didn't just left me in a bad mood from the start. And then, the snow was so high even in the parking lot that my ankles and feet are wet and cold. The stupid dryer broke too so I had to hang up Adam's sweatshirt to dry, and since it was laying damp in the appliance that even by the time this morning it wasn't dry enough to wear. So now not only do I not have my comfort of Adam, I'm chilled and annoyed. It doesn't help that I